Wednesday, April 28, 2004
view the past as I lean on under my blanket
so full of laughs, joy, and smiles...
the positive aura vibed
as if it would eternally dry mine eyes...
soul so pure, the embrace was so warm
no need to fake things and no lies!
is it only me,
or is it common that humans'll change into demon which in the end destroy his own-self!
have thy ever felt bored?
the life of a manequinn,
fake as a wedding cake!
hollow...
there's no more tears,
no more laughs,
no more love,
and no more pain...
the only thing that dance thine entire life,
is only a fake curved smile...
only GOD can judge me!!!
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Sunday, April 11, 2004
Dialogue dix Symphonie
I am the dis from darkness of your destiny
I see pieces of blood flow
Sasayaki amaku kegashite
Katami au togiiki kuru oshiku subete wo dakiyosete
Yurusarenu nara
Kasanaru you ni hageshiku ochite yuku anata to kono mama
Wasure wa shinai ano hi no yakusoku wa kono mune ni ? i wo
Mitsume au kizuato nagareru kioku de nemurasete
Yurusarenu nara
Kasanaru you ni hageshiku ochite yuku anata to kono mama
Toza shita kioku ano hi no kanashimi wo kuchizuke de tokashite
Kasanaru you ni hageshiku ochite yuku anata to kono mama
Toki wo tome eien ni kono mama hikari no naka de
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Friday, April 09, 2004
anoher day full of riddle! it always like this, forgiven things became sins whenever thy criticize... it sometimes bothers me a lot. but knowing that thou hath attention beyond my expectation, felt guilty just to have even the slightest doubt on thee. but can't blame no one though... so many lies compared to one sided love is even!
realize! thou art not better than me... so many lies comes also from thine sweet and soft lips... but I can live with that. I won't change though.
'cause I love thee! and thy shall never asked again 'WHY?'
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Wednesday, April 07, 2004
I was never what you wanted
but my blood will serve your purpose
quench yor hunger for a short time
use me, I give you my life and soul
they mean nothing to me now
you always had my soul
Since that day long ago
now you don't want it
my blood is all you want
you'll take it and leave me
lying on the cold floor to die
alone and drained
of my very life
so cold....
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Sunday, April 04, 2004
But there are yellow bruises on my body
And violet stains;
Though no white vampires come with lips blood-crimsoned
To suck my veins!
Oh fondest of my loves, from that far heaven
Where thou returned to pay the debt of kisses
Thou owest me?
She rose among us where we lay.
She wept, we put our work away
She chilled our laughter, stilled our play;
And spread a silence there.
And darkness shot across the sky,
And once, and twice, we heard her cry;
And saw hel lift white hands on high
And toss her troubled hair.
"Her eyes have feasted on the dead,
And small and shapely is her head,
And dark and small her mouth,
And beautiful to kiss;
Her mouth is sinister and red
As blood in moonlight is."
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Saturday, April 03, 2004
From the mansion of the tomb,
From the low regions of the dead,
The ghost of Sigismund doth roam,
And dreadful haunts me in my bed!
There vested in infernal guise,
By means to me not understood,
Close to my side the goblin lies,
And drinks away my vital blood!
("The Vampyre" by John Stagg, 1810)
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Thursday, April 01, 2004
"In somber gloom we near the tomb
With song and wailing tearful!
Come, open stands the bridal room,
Though all around look fearful.
Come, ... quick! Come with the choir,
Our bridal song with reed and lyre!
Come, priest, and say the blessing,
Nor wait for our confessing."
High reared the steed and wildly neighed;
Fire from his nostrils started.
And lo! from the underneath the maid
The earth to 'dmit them parted.
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